previous post,150 (this post spanned over 2 days)

and i didn't even know how to use it
wasting it on crap
then again,the ones with recognition are the ones after it
anyway,let's recount a few things
had a few more dreams,all weird and weirder ones
but none with any significance
struggling against a mountain of homework
dealing with emo people
trying to deal with my own emoness
and my own probems
of having a short concentration
yesterday i went to wkzh's house
and we had more fun than we got more work done
and then the nite before i talked with cherry
and i think i was kinda harsh on her
so maybe it was bad
sigh...
but in the end we made it through
but when i was talking to chocolate
we had a misunderstanding
and i took it out on her at wkzh's house
and chocolate,i'm really sorry for causing you all that anxiety the other day
but we're fine now luh
after asking her gd friend about her speech,i figured she was just talking normally
so i apologised to her before leaving for camp the next day
then i did chinese till late into the night
then packed within 45 minutes
and got HIM into a bad mood by letting him see the boxes i was supposed to return
and he called me scum of the earth
and said i ought to be shot dead
i was thinking,why not just kill me now?
or why not ask me to kill myself during camp?
and now victor says no suicide
anyway i'm very very worried for Lavender and i really don't know what happened to her
but i just hope that something will happen
and that the two of them will make up
and that she'll be happy again
just smsed her
and she was like "i'm fine we're fine now" which is good
:)
next problem
peach
peach i seriously dont' know what i did
is it because i didn't tag you?
maybe it is my fault
i can't say that i was busy,it's just another stupid excuse
but yeahs,i...
argh
i just don't know what to say at all
now i can't sms you
i'm so scared when i try and talk to you
i've felt your quiet anger
it'd be easier if you were screaming
but quiet anger is the worst
sigh...

save me...