i hurt so many people...

can i ever make it up to them?
1. Betrayed her trust and talked to her before getting permission...dammit
2. accidentally tagged someone but actually i raised a false alarm...argh
3. what i just did.go against one of the closest people i had.without giving a damn.
heaven knows what the hell i was doing at that point of time i decided to tell her about it
i'm not going to state my reasons,it'll just sound as if i'm defending myself
anyway,i'm off to find out easier ways to kill myself besides going to rmps and jumping off with a knife at my neck
although that seems the surest way right now
haiz...

question about life: Suteki da ne?

karl