why must i experience pain all the time...

the pain that i cause i feel
and more often i feel it more than my own pain
i don't understand,why do i find it so hard to talk to you?
i don't understand why i can't talk to my parents
not even my sister
so most of the time i end up bottling up my emotions
my problems
and so many other stuff that i just want to tell people
either that or i just look for a gd friend to talk to
so i don't understand
why do my friends leave me
why do they abandon me
why do they just throw me down on the side of the road and allow the cars to drive over me
i'm left out here in the dark,crying out,wanting to talk to someone
but everyone bypasses...
when you were abandoned,when no one else gave a damn about you
i cared for you
when you went throught a difficult point in your life,and everyone left you to die
i stood by you
but now when i want help
i want people to come
i just want you to come for the concert
and tis' the second time
no one comes
all you people take such a long time to decide
and when i start chasing
you just disappoint me with a "no,sorry can't go.next time ok?"
AND THE NEXT TIME NEVER COMES
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if you think this post is just about tickets
THINK AGAIN

karl