i'm so sorry for what i did...is there any hope of forgiveness???

omg...how could i say something like that???i was totally out of my mind!!!wtf!!!i feel so bad now...she's not online now and i can't apologise to her...i said it without thinking!!!i don't dare to face her now...i blocked her on MSN...but...
i talked to her that night...she sounded quite bored...i dunno whether it was the effect of 11 o' clock chatting but i felt that she was not the person i once knew...at the end of the conversation when i had to go,i said: "we have grown strangely distant...is it u or is it me?" immediately i signed out....
i'm afraid i have hurt her feelings...we might even grow even more distant...

karl